IF YOU CARED ENOUGH

By Charles Robert Lindholm

The Age Old Problem
Of Suicide
Remains Unsolved
Today

How Can You Help

I SIT IN THE SILENCE AND REMEMBER

By Charles Robert Lindholm

I can sit in the silence
and remember
the moment
you told me
you were ready
to move on
to your
next life  

-19.07.18_23:16-

Fade away
Disappear,

How?

How can you give up on the only self..
that never gave up on you?

How can you put a full stop to a story..
that involves other people too?

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I think about the knife,
Slowly parting

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Red tide
Clenches my fists

Love

To think, you’re finally here with me!
After years of relentless, flirtatious banter,
Sometimes as playful as puppies, we were:
Other times more serious than a snake bite–
Yet ever fruitless my affections were.

Unattainably distant, you seemed to me.
A hazy speck just beyond the horizon,
Across the ocean of my life.
And I, stranded on my little island,
Couldn’t possibly build a smoke signal
Tall enough to alert your look-out.

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Malaise,
Climate of the time

-29.03.17_23:26-

The hot water,
Cold metal bite
Along my thigh,
The urge to slice
And let loose a red horde,

-11.03.17_01:52-

The attraction
Cold, unyeilding
Gliding over skin
Red tide slowly
Seeping out,

My Heart Hurts

 

The last few years have been strangely visited by the passing of so many friends, their parents, their spouses, their children, their best lifelong friends. When you go through such a loss it helps knowing you have friends, family, and God to turn to when the pain is overwhelming and just too much to bear.  However, there are many lonely nights where it is just you and God, sharing the burden of loss.

My Heart Hurts

Waking up this morning with life’s plans rolling along.

With children, family, and friends in their places where they belong.

Hearing that my cousin has cancer drove me to my knees in pain.

My friend called to say her granddaughter has a tumor on her brain.

-20.12.16_02:11-

Poetry challenge: Christmas poem



Watching the ugly come out
Stress and hurt
Fully deserved
As time marches steadily
Forward,
The happy and festive
Overshadowed by the
Circumstances,
Feeding the side that hates,

Life Matters(on suicide)

The holidays are so lonely for so many. However, there is

always an answer better than taking your life.

Dear Heavenly Father in heaven,

I lift up this one who is broken.

The pain is too much to bear.

He can barely get up in the morning

Wishes he were with you there!

-19.11.16_11:34-

Time,
A song in cahoots with
The voice in my head,
A not so subtle
Whisper,
Urging me to
Check out,

-05.11.16_09:46-

I daydream about
Dragging a knife through
My face,
Make the outside
As scarred and ugly
Just like the inside.

-20.05.16_19:25-

I hear that voice
Calling out from within
At least once a day
“You don’t deserve to live”
Some days I push it off
Others I dwell,

-05.04.16_23:03-

I write to escape
The horrors inside,
Transforming them
Into caricatures
Easily dismissed,
I travel on.

-05.04.16_13:33-

Force a smile to your face,
When all you want
Is to crawl under the covers,
Sleep until
The malaise passes.

Flowers

 

I’ve been searching for the flowers,
but they’re nowhere to be seen.

-06.03.16_17:32-

Reaching out
From behind the black curtain
Caressing my soul,
Enticing me down.
No matter how often
I tell myself
It’s a lie,

I Was Once Young

I say “I’m depressed.”
He replies
“Well, undepress yourself;
Come to the court with the ball and the women.”
I look away listlessly,
Knowing the drugs are gone –
They have fled.
The bottles are sadly empty;
Empty cans riddled
The window sill.
The window pane
Screamed with dusty odium,
As the sun gleamed with antipathy,
The people
With cars sped by
Going nowhere;
Perhaps to heaven
Or perhaps to hell
And

-09.02.16_17:17-

I feel the cold edge
Blade upon my flesh
Hot blood
Follows the icy line,
A road into the
Blackness.

-15.01.16_08:29-

You sink down
Into the darkness
No hope, no caring,
Seeking a release
From the torment
And daily temptation.

-29.09.15_21:17-

Sink down
Into the rotting caress,
Decay smells sweet
When it comes from
Within.
Chaos slowly swirls

-15.09.15_23:41-

They say
It’s a phase,
And you can
Snap out of it,
If
You
Want.

-14.08.15_08:45-

I feel the blade
Gliding down my face,
A quick dash
Across my throat,
Red smile
Left behind,

-04.01.15_18:33-

Embrace the little death
To escape the thoughts
Of the big one,
The blade
So sharp
Sliding in
Like a lover’s

-07.11.14_08:58-

She came to visit today,
An old lover
Who’s embrace
I seek to avoid,
The bite of her blade,
Cold caress