Posts tagged ‘bipolar life’

May 29, 2020

-25.05.20_22:23-

by dokurtybitz

25.05.20_22:23
The winds swirl around me,
Empty of all, save a fine grit,
Abrasive and slowly eroding,
One repetitive day at a time
Until it’s finally over,
Six feet under or the oven,
And life no longer plucks at
You. 

April 18, 2020

-16.04.20_20:57-

by dokurtybitz
Numb and insensate
Feeling slow,

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April 15, 2020

-12.04.20_21:56-

by dokurtybitz

Leperous limbs
Reaching towards the

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February 18, 2020

-16.02.20_12:44-

by dokurtybitz
It’s a choice I think about
As it calls to me

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February 1, 2020

-01.02.20_01:03-

by dokurtybitz

It sits on my chest
Dragging me down

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January 4, 2020

-22.12.19_14:25-

by dokurtybitz

I have to go out
But I just feel like smoking

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December 5, 2019

-04.12.19_16:26-

by dokurtybitz
Thinking about,
Blade on my wrist

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November 27, 2019

-19.11.19_23:58-

by dokurtybitz

Circling around,
Finger tracing the swirl

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October 26, 2019

-25.10.19_00:25-

by dokurtybitz

Wanting to end it all
Finish struggling

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September 21, 2019

-20.09.19_02:09-

by dokurtybitz


It’s a whisper,
soft or Loud

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September 13, 2019

-04.09.19_01:27-

by dokurtybitz

*NOTE- the first video contains images of squirming bugs if you’re triggered/squeamish about them I suggest listening without watching or searching for another version of the songs

 

My brain oscillates

Manic to Depressed,

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September 5, 2019

-08.30.19_22:39-

by dokurtybitz

She was the first

I gave my heart and my soul.

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September 5, 2019

-29.08.19_22:45-

by dokurtybitz

She was the first

Who I felt understood

How broken we can be

Inside,

She showed me

That the rest of the world can’t understand

Because they’ve never looked at the knife

Quite the same way,

She’s the first

Who showed me there is a way out

Even if we stumble

Time and time again.

 

September Song Project

*note, the link does lead to a sometimes NSFW site who is hosting a September Song Project, to use songs to show changes in life that I am currently participating in- DokUrtybitz

July 18, 2019

-17.07.19_00:23-

by dokurtybitz

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July 2, 2019

-27.06.19_01:58-

by dokurtybitz

I woke up
Went through the motions

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July 2, 2019

-26.06.19_00:31-

by dokurtybitz

The days,
Wearying, plodding exercise,

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June 9, 2019

-08.06.19_13:23-

by dokurtybitz

I see the stupid played out,
The news, social media and conversation,

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May 27, 2019

-27.05.19_15:15-

by dokurtybitz

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*no listed or verifiable owner of the image found. If this is your image please notify me so I can provide credit

 

May 17, 2019

-09.05.19_01:21-

by dokurtybitz

Seeing the evil
We do to each other,

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May 4, 2019

-03.05.19_20:55-

by dokurtybitz

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They call from out beyond my

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April 22, 2019

-21.04.19_01:47-

by dokurtybitz

The body is tired,
My mind will not stop,

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April 19, 2019

-16.04.19_23:09-

by dokurtybitz

Skittering little insects
Race around in my skull

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March 13, 2019

-11.03.19_22:29-

by dokurtybitz

Time slides
Unseen and unremarked

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February 28, 2019

-26.02.19_23:43-

by dokurtybitz

Watching my hand
Bright sliver firmly grasped

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February 21, 2019

-19.02.19_22:28-

by dokurtybitz

Blood throbs
In time with the fist
Cracking on bone,
The scene swirls
Around in my head
Rage-reaction
To the gas lighting attempt,
Barely restrained,
Green monster wants
Out.

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February 17, 2019

-12.02.19_01:05-

by dokurtybitz
The words get lost
In the maelstrom of noise

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January 26, 2019

-25.01.19_22:50-

by dokurtybitz
It grates,
Wearing at my spirit

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January 23, 2019

-16.01.19_00:04-

by dokurtybitz

Ridden by it
Thoughts never cease
Carooming around
Inside my skull
Churning the butterflies
Alive in my gut.
Try to be logical,
To make a plan,
Taking some action,
All I have to show
Is naught,
That’s a nitro burst
For my stress.