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The winds swirl around me,
Empty of all, save a fine grit,
Abrasive and slowly eroding,
One repetitive day at a time
Until it’s finally over,
Six feet under or the oven,
And life no longer plucks at
You. 

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Numb and insensate

Feeling slow,

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Leperous limbs
Reaching towards the

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It’s a choice I think about

As it calls to me

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It sits on my chest
Dragging me down

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I have to go out
But I just feel like smoking

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Thinking about,

Blade on my wrist

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Circling around,
Finger tracing the swirl

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Wanting to end it all
Finish struggling

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It’s a whisper,
soft or Loud

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*NOTE- the first video contains images of squirming bugs if you’re triggered/squeamish about them I suggest listening without watching or searching for another version of the songs

 

My brain oscillates

Manic to Depressed,

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She was the first

I gave my heart and my soul.

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She was the first

Who I felt understood

How broken we can be

Inside,

She showed me

That the rest of the world can’t understand

Because they’ve never looked at the knife

Quite the same way,

She’s the first

Who showed me there is a way out

Even if we stumble

Time and time again.

 

September Song Project

*note, the link does lead to a sometimes NSFW site who is hosting a September Song Project, to use songs to show changes in life that I am currently participating in- DokUrtybitz

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I woke up
Went through the motions

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The days,
Wearying, plodding exercise,

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I see the stupid played out,
The news, social media and conversation,

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Seeing the evil
We do to each other,

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They call from out beyond my

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The body is tired,
My mind will not stop,

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Skittering little insects
Race around in my skull

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Time slides
Unseen and unremarked

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Watching my hand
Bright sliver firmly grasped

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Blood throbs
In time with the fist
Cracking on bone,
The scene swirls
Around in my head
Rage-reaction
To the gas lighting attempt,
Barely restrained,
Green monster wants
Out.

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The words get lost

In the maelstrom of noise

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It grates,

Wearing at my spirit

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Ridden by it
Thoughts never cease
Carooming around
Inside my skull
Churning the butterflies
Alive in my gut.
Try to be logical,
To make a plan,
Taking some action,
All I have to show
Is naught,
That’s a nitro burst
For my stress.