-23.03.20_18:06-

Stream clattering down,
Metallic plinks

-16.02.20_12:44-

It’s a choice I think about

As it calls to me

-01.02.20_01:03-

It sits on my chest
Dragging me down

-28.12.19_16:25-

The doorway in,
Staring back,

-22.12.19_14:25-

I have to go out
But I just feel like smoking

-14.12.19_04:17-

My fingers run over

Rough, sandpaper skin,

-04.12.19_16:26-

Thinking about,

Blade on my wrist

-19.11.19_23:58-

Circling around,
Finger tracing the swirl

-13.11.19_00:35-

We all shine

Under the obscuring fog

-07.11.19_00:59-

Bitten by the cold,

Abrupt temperature change,

-25.10.19_00:25-

Wanting to end it all
Finish struggling

-22.10.19_16:05-

Feeling weird
In my head,

-09.10.19_01:15-

I don’t want to sleep,
Since that means

-03.10.19_00:29-

Quickly across the street
Reddish-brown flash

-27.09.19_01:15-

I can see her lying there,
Just beyond my reach

-20.09.19_02:09-

It’s a whisper,
soft or Loud

-18.09.19_02:58-

She looks at me
With Love in her eye

-08.09.19_14:38-

 

A choice that I made

It was supposed to be until the end

The one and

Only,

Again.

Abandoned amidst predictions

Now true,

Watching as life goes on for others

But not for me.

September Song Project

-15.09.19_22:56-

I’ve reached the age

Where Death, once a seldom seen acquaintance

-04.09.19_23:03-

 

Sitting in our small living room,

The first place I ever lived

-04.09.19_01:27-

*NOTE- the first video contains images of squirming bugs if you’re triggered/squeamish about them I suggest listening without watching or searching for another version of the songs

 

My brain oscillates

Manic to Depressed,

-02.09.19_12:33-

My circle is small,

He was the second I ever let in

-01.09.19_00:57-

 

I’ve stumbled and shared tribulations,

I’ve changed and grown

-08.30.19_22:39-

She was the first

I gave my heart and my soul.

-05.09.19_00:37-

It’s been
2,920 days

-29.08.19_22:45-

She was the first

Who I felt understood

How broken we can be

Inside,

She showed me

That the rest of the world can’t understand

Because they’ve never looked at the knife

Quite the same way,

She’s the first

Who showed me there is a way out

Even if we stumble

Time and time again.

 

September Song Project

*note, the link does lead to a sometimes NSFW site who is hosting a September Song Project, to use songs to show changes in life that I am currently participating in- DokUrtybitz

-11.08.19_23:41-

A common item,
A treasure kept,

-10.08.19_02:09-

Eyelids droop,
Fluttering open