By Charles Robert Lindholm
I don’t know who I am yet
for I have not faced the darkest night
nor heard the howling demons
that hunger for my soul
I have not felt the razors edge
nor heard the wooing whispers
tempting me to use it
to let my blood be
the ink of my final poem
I cannot know what you know
what you have felt
I have not been to where
you have been
I don’t know who I am yet
am I strong enough?
am I brave enough?
to be a warrior
Am I unworthy
because I don’t know
the depths of your darkness
and I have doubts
and I wonder?
I have seen You
in the sunshine
filled with childish glee
I have felt the warmth of your heart
and your joy when you’re with me
I have heard the whispered yearnings
of your soul longing to be free
I have felt the passions burning
as our bodies intertwine
and the rush of oneness
that my words cannot define
I have seen you in the sunshine
I have seen you in the light
I have seen the you, you want to be
and it makes me want to fight
for you, for us
I have loved you in the sunshine
I will not leave you in the night
in the darkness with the demons
I will stay and we will fight, for you
I may not be a warrior
I may be faint of heart
but I love you more than anything
and I will not run away
I do not know who I am yet
and I may not be brave enough
or strong enough, yet
but I will stay and I will fight
for you and for us
because I Love you
I am untried
I am untested
I may be unworthy
but I am sitting here
with you in the darkness
in the silence of the night
in your now
accepting of the past
hopeful of the future
loving all of you
if you will, let me
Will you let me
love you?
Copyright © 2018 Charles Robert Lindholm – All Rights Reserved
This is dedicated to all of those, including ourselves, who have had to sit in the darkness alone to face the doubts and demons of life. And to those who have been willing to sit with another in the darkness as a friend, family member or loved one, even when they doubted their own strength, courage, endurance or ability to be brave.
God bless those who we love, and God bless us with the power and desire to love as well!!
Chuck
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