A marriage of necessity, not essentially of convenience
A situation not easily explained over tea
I close my heavy gritty eye lids and I see you
Laugh lines etched onto that handsomely expressive face
Tanned by the warmth of the happiness you exclude
Man, you are certainly a sun, one people unconsciously flock
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In the silence disturbed by my breathing, I hear your voice
A rich warm honey flavoured that lovely romantic accent
I do my best to remain unaffected,
We say hi, hello and how do you do
Ciao, bye-bye, I’ll be seeing you!
Politeness on autopilot
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I cannot tell of what you feel
We were not supposed to have any of that
Well, at least, that wasn’t a part of the deal
I say nothing but still feel the echo of disbelief
When I found out –
We couldn’t stand each others’ presence
I despised you for reasons I now find trivial
Discovered what my heart was trying say
Beating in erratic Morse Code when you are here
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I find it a brick to deal with, inconvenient if you will,
In a marriage of necessity, how can I admit
Without the hindrance of pride
That indeed I’m falling for you
And without the fear that I may hit rock bottom
Of a love that many not be there
© Devina S.