Two shades of me

by Devina

Via mymodernmet.com

I am all shades of happiness

Such a shining outlook towards the horizon

I pride myself in my hope in all things

That tomorrow holds a better fate

I oft’ seek company with the stars

No matter my shade that day

The stars tell me of their adventures

Of the dragons that were slew in the

Torch lit night

Oh, how the swords did gleam bright

*

They told me stories of the lovers

That sneaked midnight walks under the watchful moon

My bright days are seldom extinguished by the darkness

That oozed from the corners of the room

From the soil beneath my feet

And from the pores of my skin

It sometimes slithers slowly along my body

Sometimes at such breath stealing speeds

*

In no time I am my other self,

My other shade, the darker one

I hide and I cry for no reason at first

Then the darkness plunders

The faults I found in me

I am no one, worthless and I take up space

Expectations that I won’t live up to

Floats before my tear-stained face

*

Oh, how this retched darkness taunts me so

It shows me a way out of my misery,

a fatal sip, perhaps a fall

But I fight with what ammunition I’ve left

My existence is none of its business

I look to the stars once again, Vincent’s stars

Their colours bleed at my pain,

Hath this darkness no shame?

© Devina S.

6 Responses to “Two shades of me”

  1. First of all wow this is so great , very nicely written ….and Btw can you tell me how you put that code box under your button , on your blog ..?

  2. Thank you, Tim! Some of my best stuff came from experience. You mean like the one here on Poet’s Corner? A blogger friend gave me the steps on how to do it, she made a post http://quillwielder.com/2012/07/03/creating-a-blog-button/#comment-1501 Check it out 😉

  3. Devina, this whispered of the secret nature of our duality, our hopes and dreams vs. our struggle to maintain sanity and a sense of self in the world…..I especially liked the second stanza, and the very last sentence. Really nice, I enjoyed reading it. 🙂
    Celeste

    • Precisely, Celeste. These two sides of us are often conflicting each other, and I personally know, it’s a nasty battle going on inside, on the outside everything seems to be in order and others around remain oblivious.

      Thank you 🙂 I’m delighted you enjoyed it, though I apologize for the late reply.

  4. I see the meaning and the deep scars slashed across your soul. I feel the same at times …. I think we are all bipolar just some admit it ! Thank you for sharing this , it is a beautiful poem with beautiful words . Thank you again.x

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