I am all shades of happiness
Such a shining outlook towards the horizon
I pride myself in my hope in all things
That tomorrow holds a better fate
I oft’ seek company with the stars
No matter my shade that day
The stars tell me of their adventures
Of the dragons that were slew in the
Torch lit night
Oh, how the swords did gleam bright
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They told me stories of the lovers
That sneaked midnight walks under the watchful moon
My bright days are seldom extinguished by the darkness
That oozed from the corners of the room
From the soil beneath my feet
And from the pores of my skin
It sometimes slithers slowly along my body
Sometimes at such breath stealing speeds
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In no time I am my other self,
My other shade, the darker one
I hide and I cry for no reason at first
Then the darkness plunders
The faults I found in me
I am no one, worthless and I take up space
Expectations that I won’t live up to
Floats before my tear-stained face
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Oh, how this retched darkness taunts me so
It shows me a way out of my misery,
a fatal sip, perhaps a fall
But I fight with what ammunition I’ve left
My existence is none of its business
I look to the stars once again, Vincent’s stars
Their colours bleed at my pain,
Hath this darkness no shame?
© Devina S.